Life, Job, Weight Goal Updates.

A lot has gone on since my last update. In my last boring update, I advised that the company I have worked for 22.5 years was eliminating my role. Well, that was true and did happen as of 03/17/2023, however. I was able to land a new role with said company and that role began on 03/19/2023. For me, the role is a step up from what I was doing before plus some new and exciting things I am looking for. I accepted a role as Tech Support Analyst. Not sure everything it will entail just yet, but I am super excited to still be employed. Life continues as it has been work-wise, and things are good. I did start my training which will last a few weeks. I was excited but also nervous about the new role, but I got a great compliment from one of my managers who said, I will do great, and she thinks I am one of the smartest people to have accepted the new role. That really made my day. So, currently, things are stable on the job front.

Working Hard??

My mental health has been good, for the most part. I have my moments but landing the new role at work has brought my stress and anxiety back down to manageable levels. That makes me happy to know that for now I have one less thing to worry about unless something else comes up. My weight loss goal is closer in sight. As of my last weight check I was sitting now at 179. That is down from the 185 I was stuck at. So, things are moving in the right direction, so that makes me happy. I still watch what I am eating most of the time. I have sweets from time to time. Not to mention other unhealthy food but it’s less. I am still going for walks, although not as I did before. I know that I need to get back out there and walk more but sometimes my anxiety takes over and I just stay inside. Also, my new shift is a little different than what I had and tends to get in the way of things, but we shall see what we can do about that. I may go for a walk today and at lunch time. Get out of here and walk for about 25 to 30 minutes.

Still “rocking” the single life. Nothing is happening on that front. But that is okay. I don’t expect much change on that front. One, I don’t work in a public off, so I can’t really “fish off the company pier”. Two, I don’t list myself on dating apps much and the ones I do I get no nibbles or bites, if I do it’s a bot or someone who I would have no interest in. At least I have my dreams. That is where things will have to stay for now.

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Take Care,


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A Lot Is Going on in Life Right Now! Very stressful.

A lot is going on right now—lots of stress related to work and personal life. My weight is increasing, and I keep going from 180-185. I am stuck in that range, which is better than the 240 where I was. Still hasn’t helped me land a boyfriend, partner, or whatever else you want to call it. Which I guess is fine, I suppose. As I have said before, I always fall for the wrong person, and get a crush on the wrong person and if you are reading my blog that person might know who they are, even though they are straight, but that is all right. They are nice and handsome people.

Healthwise everything is going well, other than getting old and about to be forty-eight soon. I’ll be honest, I thought I would be gone from this work before then, but I am hanging around, but I often don’t understand why I am hanging around. I have absolutely nothing going for me now. Diabetes is under control, my last A1C was 5.7 which is good for someone with typ2 diabetes. I do feel better with it being under control but damn, my feet hurt nonstop. The medication doesn’t help and I now I only take Lyrica when my feet are hurting. They hurt bad at night making me want to cut them the hell off, but I know I can’t do that. And as we type my feet are feeling so damn bad. I need to talk to my doctor to see what else can be done. The pain keeps me up at night.

Work is in flux right now. In less than 23 days I might be unemployed, and my position with where I work is being eliminated. I got that notice on 02/17/2023. Never in my life did I think I would get a notice like that. I have no ill feelings toward the company or co-workers at all. Most are great and I have known them for many, many years. I have applied for a few other roles, and I do have an interview for one as a Sr. Tech Rep. I am nervous about the interview, but I think I will do all right. I just must try and NOT be nervous. I’ll take my beta blocker before the interview, so that should help me stay calm and focused. But again, I have nothing but wonderful things to say about the place where I have worked for 22.5 years. I’m okay with whatever happens but I would like to stay with the company and continue my lengthy career. They have always been good to me and fair and really came through for me when my mother died when I had to go out on Long Term Disability when I was having to deal with her passing. I still miss her every day as well.

It just seems like sometimes I can’t catch a break. In 2022, I lost an apartment I lived in for 14 years, even though it had some serious issues, I liked where I lived. It was nice, quiet, and peaceful. Also, in the middle of everywhere I go. Now I am in a place I am not familiar with but at least some of the places I go to are close and easy to get to. I will say that traffic really, really sucks here as well and anyone who really knows me knows that I hate to drive. It’s one of my least favorite things to do in life. Then of course this month, I got the notice that my job is being realigned and I was just starting to get my head above water. Now I might be drowning again. I need a real break. Can’t I just win the lotto or something and pay off all my bills and just get ahead for a little while? Just a little while is all I ask. I don’t know why it seems like the universe I’m out to get my life hell. I just want one break. Oh well, this is my lot in life.

Pretty moving colors

I’ll just sit here in my lonely apartment, listen to my worship, praise music, and watch all the nice colors that are flowing on my ceiling and try and relax and go back to sleep before I have work in the AM. I’ll upload a video. It’s pretty cool. Just lying down and watching the colors can sometimes be relaxing.

Well, that is all that I have for now. I really do hope that you read the blog. I love reading comments, when and if I get them. This blog is very personal and helps me with my mental health by being able to share things. Not that it brings anyone closer to me, but it is my outlet to share my feelings and my boring lonely life. Well, thanks for reading this far. Hope to hear from you soon. Thank you for all your support.

Take care,


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Weightloss Journey Continues

This is probably the single thing I have been proud of recently. I continue to lose weight but at a much slower pace. I will take what I can get. I’ve enclosed another graph to help show my weight loss. Diabetes is still under control. My A1C was 5.7 as of my last test in December 2022. Oh, and my Novovax COVID vaccine study is finally over after two long years. No more jabs and blood draws.

Tending down

Other than that, not much is going on in my life now. I work some and take too many FML days, and vacation days. Always seems to happen at the start of the year. I have plenty left, I just need to manage it better. Which is a struggle in and of itself. All I can really do is keep doing what I am doing and hope for a great year. Hell, I will take just a good year as long as I do not have to move again for at least a couple of years. I hate moving and driving as most people who know me know. It’s two things at annoy me the most. That and I hate change. Change for the sake of change is never good.

Well, I think that is it for now. I honestly don’t have much else to really say. Keep an eye on this space for future updates.

Take Care,


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Continuing Progress on weight loss.

I am continuing my journey to look and feel better. Thanks to exercise, less and better eating and control of my diabetes. Progress is slow but is happening. I hope I can keep all the weight off and keep up this journey.

July 2022 to January 2023
Progress over the last few months.
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Weight loss Journey continues.

My weight loss journey continues. It can be a slow journey, but I’ve finally broken the 190 barrier. Today weigh in is approximately 188 pounds. I’m setting a new goal of 175. Then I’ll go from there but as of now NONE of my shorts fit. Even my belt won’t keep my pants up. I’m excited about the change I’ve made over the last several months. Before I started keeping track my weight was nearly 240 pounds in July of the year.

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