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Here we go again. Another day of worry about getting an apartment by the end of October. I have placed so many calls and sent so many emails, but NO ONE is calling me back. The one apartment I was hoping for has declined me. I’ll call them back today and see if anything can be done to approve me for an apartment as I am in a desperate need of one. My credit is shit but I pay my rent, power and cable all on time. Never had an issue there. MAYBE if I had a co-signer, it would change things. But I do not have anyone that could be a co-signer, no living family members. Would never ask friends to that for me. I worry every day I am going to be homeless, and I have said also that will not happen. I’d rather be dead than homeless. I am still pissed off at my landlord for not giving me enough notice. You’d think that 90 days would be enough time, but I don’t feel like is. As of now, today, I have 76 days until I have to move. Each day it is counting down. I guess one minor side effect of having to move and finding place is that I am up early every day to spend time with myself before I have to sign into work. I don’t look forward to that. But that is a different post. Also, it appears my weight is going down because of the stress. I find myself eating less, which is a good thing. That also helps with the Type 2 Diabetes. At least that is under control for the most part. I think I take too many medications. But, if they work, they work. So all-in-all it is a good thing. Not that it matters, isn’t no one going to date me anyway. But that also is another post.

I guess it is time to wrap this post up. But before I do, I was able to sell off one TV, Xbox and sound bar in an effort to downsize so I can fit myself and my junk into a new apartment. I am sorry worried about this. Sighhhhhhhhhh. Also, my fundraising appeal. If you want to help me offset my cost of new apartment shopping, let me know and I will tell how you can help me. My final purchase of boxes should be here today. Now, it’s more to apply and pay fees to apply that are nonrefundable even if they decline you, which I think is total BULLSHIT. If they decline you, then they should refund you.

EDIT 1: I have been calling places all day. I can’t get ahold of anyone. I don’t know what to do. My whole life is falling apartment. I’m thinking it is about time. It really is.

That’s all for now! Take Care

Jackamus

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Well, I am still searching. NO ONE calls you back, no one responds to emails anything at all. I did get my first rejection though. That is something and it is a place I kind of really wanted to move. She did say that the apartment manager is out, and she may approve it when she returns to the office. She is out sick. So, there is still hope. Maybe little to known but there is still hope. They charge $85.00 just to be rejected and you don’t even get your money back and that’s not fair. You should not be able to keep my very hard-earned money. I am not made of gold; I am not like some of you who can take vacations every fucking month. Seems like some of you are always way. Yes, Facebook friends, I do pay attention. LOL. But you clearly are better than me. You probably made many better decisions than I clearly did. Probably grew up in a great family too. I won’t get into all that right now.

I am so sick of all this, and I have only been searching since 7/25/22, way to fuck up my birthday, landlord lady. I had much respect for her, but not anymore to spring this one me and literally the last fucking minute. Even though lease is up 10/31/22 it’s still not much time when places have long waiting lists. I have applied to two, I will apply to more as soon as people call me back. I am going to keep searching. I am now going to look of moving out of the Tampa area, maybe go to some surrounding county and city. I really hope something happens soon for me. I’ve said it before and I will say it again, I won’t be homeless, I will be dead before I will ever be homeless again. Not going to fucking happen.

I guess some good news is that my boxes will be here soon. Not sure if that will even matter. But at least the people who clean up after will not have such a difficult job if everything is already packed and ready to be thrown in the trash or given to Goodwill.

If you want to help me offset my cost of new apartment shopping, feel free to Cash App at $Jackamus or @Jackamus for Venmo. Also, use PayPal and Apple Pay. I will not refuse any type of help. It’s expensive and I was caught off guard or I could have better prepared. No shame in my game. Why should it matter, I might not be long for this world. If you like to read about my depressing life, you can scroll all the way to the bottom and enter your email address to get the latest black cloud posts.

Thanks for reading,

Jack