I am having a few drinks tonight. Can’t over do it. I have to go to Walmart in the morning..

I’ll never be anyone’s first choice, second, third, fourth. You get the point….. I bought liquor, I should drink. Probably ruin all my plans for tomorrow.

Would be nice if I had someone to go out with and have drinks…..

I’m probably going to be alone for the rest of my life…. Life is so depressing. I buy things to make myself feel better. It would be really nice if I had a partner in my life. Covid and the fact that I’m a fat ugly person has made it difficult to meet people. All I would take is a couple shots of insulin. Just saying.

My manic high phase is over. It’s now time for the manic depression phase. Ugh, Now if I could find a bridge to drive off of. Oh wait, I know of a bridge. Lol! That would be too painful. Pills or insulin would be easier.