Today has been a rough day. I miss my mom so much. The light at the end of the tunnel is getting dimmer. Today, I started the long process of cleaning out old stuff that I no longer need or that I have used in 5+ years. I am really just junking a lot of things that I didn't know I had or knew I needed. Trying to slim my stuff down to the bare minimum of things. It's like why do I have a old cell phone from 2000? What is the purpose of keeping that. Well, It' s…

Here I sit, just like I do every Friday and Saturday night. I sit her wondering what I am going to do for the night. What do I end up doing? Nothing. Like always. I sit/lay here and watch TV. Or I sit on the computer and surf the interwebs. I'll sit on the PC and listen to music, or lay on the couch with my phone and watch TV while surfing apps on my phone. It's the same damn thing. Every fucking day or night. Tonight I am in one of my moods. I am either going to go…

No one warned me life is hard and complicated.