Today has been a rough day. I miss my mom so much. The light at the end of the tunnel is getting dimmer. Today, I started the long process of cleaning out old stuff that I no longer need or that I have used in 5+ years. I am really just junking a lot of things that I didn’t know I had or knew I needed. Trying to slim my stuff down to the bare minimum of things. It’s like why do I have a old cell phone from 2000? What is the purpose of keeping that. Well, It’ s gone now. I destroyed it. I did two bags of junk today and in the coming days, I hope to be able to do a lot more. Knickknacks that I have no use for. I have a shit ton of books I need to get rid of that I have either never read or yea, never fucking read. Next up is cloths that I have not worn in years. I wear the same things over and over until they wear out and then get something out. I really have so much stuff I want to get rid of. Tons of crap that needs to go. I’ve made a small dent in it. I took a lot of time off this year and really didn’t do as much as I wanted. I should probably take a bunch of this shit/junk to GoodWill but I am too fucking lazy and I don’t want to pack all this up. I am not sure why I am holding on to much of this stuff. It’s time to say good bye to all the stuff I don’t need. I am ONE person. I should not have so much JUNK that I require a 2 bedroom apartment. I need to downsize so I can get down to one bedroom in the very near future. Or clear out enough stuff that whoever has to get rid of my stuff for me won’t have to deal with a lot of stuff.