Today has been a rough day. I miss my mom so much. The light at the end of the tunnel is getting dimmer. Today, I started the long process of cleaning out old stuff that I no longer need or that I have used in 5+ years. I am really just junking a lot of things that I didn’t know I had or knew I needed. Trying to slim my stuff down to the bare minimum of things. It’s like why do I have a old cell phone from 2000? What is the purpose of keeping that. Well, It’ s gone now. I destroyed it. I did two bags of junk today and in the coming days, I hope to be able to do a lot more. Knickknacks that I have no use for. I have a shit ton of books I need to get rid of that I have either never read or yea, never fucking read. Next up is cloths that I have not worn in years. I wear the same things over and over until they wear out and then get something out. I really have so much stuff I want to get rid of. Tons of crap that needs to go. I’ve made a small dent in it. I took a lot of time off this year and really didn’t do as much as I wanted. I should probably take a bunch of this shit/junk to GoodWill but I am too fucking lazy and I don’t want to pack all this up. I am not sure why I am holding on to much of this stuff. It’s time to say good bye to all the stuff I don’t need. I am ONE person. I should not have so much JUNK that I require a 2 bedroom apartment. I need to downsize so I can get down to one bedroom in the very near future. Or clear out enough stuff that whoever has to get rid of my stuff for me won’t have to deal with a lot of stuff.
Here I sit, just like I do every Friday and Saturday night. I sit her wondering what I am going to do for the night. What do I end up doing? Nothing. Like always. I sit/lay here and watch TV. Or I sit on the computer and surf the interwebs. I’ll sit on the PC and listen to music, or lay on the couch with my phone and watch TV while surfing apps on my phone. It’s the same damn thing. Every fucking day or night.
Tonight I am in one of my moods. I am either going to go lay on the couch and watch TV ( which would be the smart thing to do ) or maybe I will drink. I have a full bottle of rum and plenty of soda. Plus I am stocked up on ice to get me through the night, either until I pass out drunk, get sick or just get bored and go to bed. Or maybe I will get on a site and find a hookup? haha. Naw! But I will tip virtual strippers’. You have to be safe during COVID-19.
Well, I guess I will drink, listen to music and tip some virtual strippers. My life sucks. No one wants to listen to my problems. Well, my doctor does but that is because I have to pay him. Seriously, all it would take a couple hundred units of insulin. It would be painless. But I digress. Would need to a Will and letter, but I digress. Maybe it is time to work on those at some point in the future.
That’s all for now! Later gator! Time for some rum and coke and bad decisions.
No one warned me life is hard and complicated.
So far, so good. No major or minor side effects from the experimental COVID-19 vaccine or placebo that I got on Wednesday. Very little pain in the arm from the shot. The flu shot hurt worse than the shot I got on Wednesday.
Today, I became apart of a COVID19 Vaccine trial. I have 2 out 3 chance to get the vaccine and 1 out of 3 to get the placebo. Here is to hoping I got the actual vaccine. I am glad to do my part of help! This is pretty exciting.