As always, I don't have a lot today. Or anything that is really worth reading. I am just obsessing over the same things I do. I know that the future is scaring me. I am not prepared to get old. I have no one to help or care for me, if something major happens. I have also been obsessing about my rent and hoping my landlord will renew my lease. I men she has since 2008, I don't see why she wouldn't unless she goes for a huge increase in rent. (Money grab.) Then I am fucked. I won't know…