After fighting with doctor's, insurance companies, pharmacies, I have decided it is time to stop all this shit again. I am 100% over it. I don't have the strength or the energy to do it anymore. Probably means I will die sooner rather than later but I guess that is the risk I have to take. Just no longer have the energy for it all.

I dislike Christmas now. I have not got a gift since my Mom died. I miss her very much. I was an okay son. I should have been a better son. Sigghhhhh. Sorry I have not written much. Why should that matter. No one read its.