Would be nice if I had someone to go out with and have drinks…..

I’m probably going to be alone for the rest of my life…. Life is so depressing. I buy things to make myself feel better. It would be really nice if I had a partner in my life. Covid and the fact that I’m a fat ugly person has made it difficult to meet people. All I would take is a couple shots of insulin. Just saying.

My manic high phase is over. It’s now time for the manic depression phase. Ugh, Now if I could find a bridge to drive off of. Oh wait, I know of a bridge. Lol! That would be too painful. Pills or insulin would be easier.

I miss you mom! I love you with all my heart! I feel dead and empty without you. My true best friend and only person who never judged me but loved me unconditionally! Maybe one day soon I’ll see you again in heaven if that is even a place!