So much on my mind, so very much. Was watching a show that talked about a guy who committed suicide. Of course, the family doesn't believe it was suicide. They believe someone murdered him. He didn't leave a note. If I ever plan to do that and sometimes, I really do think about it. Sometimes daily. But I am just too chicken to do anything. I am not really sure I would be missed. Again, welcome to my most depressing blog. That is usually all that I post here. I'd rather post my negative and depressing shit here. I'll post…