If only people understood what I really go through on a daily basis. Yes, sometimes it makes me an asshole. I freely admit that. I try to do better but I don't always do. Thus is life a guess. Right now I am listening to and old and I do mean old recording done at my former church with Kent Henry. It was done in 1994 during a worship conference. It a nice thirty minutes of soaking in worship. Yes, some of you may know, others don't because they do not read my blog. But I am a huge lover…