A Lot Is Going on in Life Right Now! Very stressful.
Posted inGeneral Healthcare Jack's Musings Job Crisis 2023 My Mental Health Personal Feelings

A Lot Is Going on in Life Right Now! Very stressful.

A lot is going on right now—lots of stress related to work and personal life. My weight is increasing, and I keep going from 180-185. I am stuck in that range, which is better than the 240 where I was. Still hasn't helped me land a boyfriend, partner, or whatever else you want to call it. Which I guess is fine, I suppose. As I have said before, I always fall for the wrong person, and get a crush on the wrong person and if you are reading my blog that person might know who they are, even though they…
My life is about to change.
Posted inHealthcare My Mental Health Personal Life Events The Great Move of 2022

My life is about to change.

Well, what I feared the most is about to come to pass. My landlord is not going to renew my lease. She says she going to have family move in. So, after more than a decade she is giving me to the boot. I hate bullshit life this. I have no idea how I will manage this change. But I will try. It's either I move and find an apartment, or I become homeless. But before that ever happens, I'd take plenty of insulin to end it all. Trust me when I say, I will, because I will. I don't…
It’s Been A While
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It’s Been A While

As it seems to be a theme with me, I will go months without posting. Sometimes it's because I have nothing to say or I have something to say, but trust me, it's so dark you might now want to read it. Hell, not sure I even want to read it. It's been almost one week since the time change. Not sure how everyone feels about it, but I kind of like the later days with more sunlight. With more sunlight I am supposed to be less depressed but that does not always work. Sometimes it makes it worse. When…
photo of happy family
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Interesting thought

I’ve basically have no family left. Ultimately I’m alone. I’ll be buried in a potter’s field. I think that’s the term! So depressing. Life is depressing and work is depressing. Sighhhhhhhh! I look forward to the weekend and making bad drinking drinks decisions.