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I Can’t Do This Much More

I don't ask for much. I just wish people would be more open and listen and understanding. I am depressed beyond belief. I really can't do this much longer. At least that is how I feel right now. That might change later. I wonder when this site will fuck up. This is a minor outlet. But NO one reads and NO ONE cares. I miss my Mom. I am lonely, miserable. I wish I could afford a drug habit. I wish I was drinking tonight but I am not. I might start. But, I have a DR's appt tomorrow. I…
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Today has been rough

Today has been a rough day. I miss my mom so much. The light at the end of the tunnel is getting dimmer. Today, I started the long process of cleaning out old stuff that I no longer need or that I have used in 5+ years. I am really just junking a lot of things that I didn't know I had or knew I needed. Trying to slim my stuff down to the bare minimum of things. It's like why do I have a old cell phone from 2000? What is the purpose of keeping that. Well, It' s…
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As I do Every Friday and Saturday Night

Here I sit, just like I do every Friday and Saturday night. I sit her wondering what I am going to do for the night. What do I end up doing? Nothing. Like always. I sit/lay here and watch TV. Or I sit on the computer and surf the interwebs. I'll sit on the PC and listen to music, or lay on the couch with my phone and watch TV while surfing apps on my phone. It's the same damn thing. Every fucking day or night. Tonight I am in one of my moods. I am either going to go…