March is Almost Over
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March is Almost Over

Well, well, well..... You are back to read the mad ramblings of a lost soul. You must not have a life. Hell, I know no one reads this blog. Part of me is scared that people would actually read it. So, right now I am just listening to some old music from where I attended church back in the 90's. The place is gone now because of their own faults and scandals. But enough of that. I did manage to go to Walmart today to get some food and some bathroom rugs. The others has seen their better days -…
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Happy Birthday Mom!

I miss you, I love you. If there is a afterlife, I hope I get to see you again. I hate being without you. Also, I am sorry for being a bad son sometimes. I love you!! Mommy
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The depth of my pain

I’ll probably never share the true depth of the pain and depression I suffer from. Not even my own psychologist understands. I’ve started the search for a psychiatrist but some seem so off putting and too difficult to deal with. It’s not even worth the effort anymore. I’m truly exhausted and tired from the daily struggle of life. Some of it is my own doing, some of it is the mental abuse inflicted on my by others (Doug, Floyd, Howard, Karl). Some of it is the mental abuse that one suffers from when one is not a “premium gay”. One…