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Interesting thought

I’ve basically have no family left. Ultimately I’m alone. I’ll be buried in a potter’s field. I think that’s the term! So depressing. Life is depressing and work is depressing. Sighhhhhhhh! I look forward to the weekend and making bad drinking drinks decisions.
Oh what a week…..and the week to come…..
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Oh what a week…..and the week to come…..

If only people understood what I really go through on a daily basis. Yes, sometimes it makes me an asshole. I freely admit that. I try to do better but I don't always do. Thus is life a guess. Right now I am listening to and old and I do mean old recording done at my former church with Kent Henry. It was done in 1994 during a worship conference. It a nice thirty minutes of soaking in worship. Yes, some of you may know, others don't because they do not read my blog. But I am a huge lover…
Well It Did Happen…..
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Well It Did Happen…..

Damn it all to hell. Some changes took place at work this week that changes my work assignment for 6 weeks. I am so pissed about it. There is just nothing I could do. I am a peon, I have NO power at all to bring about change at work. Sadly I have to go with the flow, but I do raise my voice when I am pissed about a decision that is being made that has a HUGE impact me. I was able to stay with my current assignment if I wanted to work Thurs thru Sun from 12PM…
Thankful Yet Depressed and Sad
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Thankful Yet Depressed and Sad

Wow, 2021 seems to be flying by. Let me say a few things I am thankful for. Since I post so much depressing stuff, why not something a little positive and then I will go negative. As I type this I am listening to worship services I recorded off WCIE 91.1 when it existed. I was still in high school when I recorded all the tapes. I converted most to digital. I am glad I am vaccinated and thankful that I have not got COVID. I am thankful I can go to movies and enjoy the movie going experience, I…
It’s another day…..
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It’s another day…..

So much on my mind, so very much. Was watching a show that talked about a guy who committed suicide. Of course, the family doesn't believe it was suicide. They believe someone murdered him. He didn't leave a note. If I ever plan to do that and sometimes, I really do think about it. Sometimes daily. But I am just too chicken to do anything. I am not really sure I would be missed. Again, welcome to my most depressing blog. That is usually all that I post here. I'd rather post my negative and depressing shit here. I'll post…